Sometimes in life, I sit and think about how far I have come, to help me feel better about the place I currently am. I felt I missed out on a lot of great opportunities growing up, and I often wonder where I would be now if I did things differently.
There are a lot of things I did when I was younger which have made me the person I am today. Some good and some bad, but at the end of the day they have rounded me up as a whole.
Ideally I would have done some things differently, but these are the top 10 things I wish I did as a teenager…
1 – I wish I DIDN’T TRY TO CHANGE MYSELF TO FIT IN
I’m sure everyone at some point in their life never really fitted in to a friendship group, and I felt that more than I really like to admit. I’m a very shy person, and I always had a vibe from people that they thought I was being rude. This made me feel even more uncomfortable and when I’d try to talk to people I somehow always said the wrong thing.
Unfortunately for me, I suffer with not fitting in general. I think that’s why I love my own company and just being with Luke. Some people don’t have an easy ride, but one day you will meet someone, whether it be a friend, a partner or even a pet, and then you know you can be 100% yourself around them.
I wish I did more things that made me happy and didn’t care what anyone else had thought of me. Those people who always had something to say to me during school, have no impact on my life right now. When you’re that age, it’s so hard to see the light and you find yourself forgetting that school is just 5 years of your life, there’s a much bigger ocean waiting for you once you leave.
2 – I wish I TOOK MY MAKE UP OFF BEFORE BED
As a teen, I was obsessed with wearing make up. Of course this make up was three shades too dark for me and I never knew what ‘blending’ was, so I would always have that line under my chin as I never put foundation on my neck. It wasn’t a good luck. Each night I would always sleep in my make up. Mascara, eyeliner, foundation, the works. I don’t know how I did and I don’t know what I was trying to achieve by doing it. I guess I was just a very lazy teen that couldn’t be bothered to wash her face before bed.
I rarely wear make up these days, but I definitely notice that my skin isn’t as clear as it should be for my age. I blame this mainly on my bad habits. My mum tried to get me into a skin care routine when I was around 15, and as much as I loved it for the first six weeks, it didn’t stick. Now I have a skin care routine and I wish I started when I was younger. I just spend my days in ultra thick moisturising face masks.
3 – I WISH I travelled more
I’m sure most people went on holidays when they were in college and uni? Ibiza, Maga and all those party central places? I never really got the chance. I didn’t really have that much money (this will be discussed later in the post) and the opportunity never happened. I would always be working or busy with something else. This is one thing I wish I got to do.
I’m not the party type either, Ibiza is my idea of HELL, but a city trip to Barcelona would have been pretty nice. My last big holiday abroad was when I was 12 and my next holiday after that was when I was 23 with work. I went on a trip with uni to Paris for a couple of nights but I wouldn’t really call it a holiday, mainly exhibits.
This is definitely something I wish I took the chance to save for.
4 – I wish I looked after my teeth more
This is a weird one. I am obsessed with my teeth these days, so I’m sure most people wouldn’t be able to see me any other way. My dental hygiene when I was younger was awful. I hated going to the dentist and I’m pretty sure the dentist hated having me in his chair of doom. I got braces pretty late, because my hygiene was so bad they refused to put them on.
Anyways, I finally got them fitted and once removed, I had the perfect set of teeth. Except a few months after having them removed, my teeth would always move back into place after removing the retainer in a morning. I complained about this and they eventually added a fitted retainer and it was a LIFE-SAVER, honestly! That ended up coming off after around 6 months, and for some reason the orthodontist refused to add another. My teeth moved so much that my removable retainer didn’t fit and my teeth just went all shoddy and are now pretty much uneven again.
When I get some money saved up, my teeth are going to be that one thing I get fixed. They’re my pride and joy and when something bad happens it’s breaks my heart that little bit more.
5 – I WISH I learnt to drive
This is one I really wish I had done. I lived in a tiny village where I always had to catch a bus or rely on my mum to take me to town and I could have really done with a little banger. For some strange and unforgiving reason, I decided against driving lessons for one of my birthdays and boy I wish I could go back and smack myself around the face and yell at myself for saying that.
Now I’m older, I find I have much less time to learn to drive. For one I live in another country so everything I have been mentally practising while watching other people drive has gone out of the window.
At uni I never needed to drive, and then once I moved in with Luke he drove everywhere. One thing is, we want to drive around America, in a converted van, but I would need to drive. I can’t have Luke drive everywhere now can I… or could I?
This is something I am considering doing in the next year or so maybe do a crash course in a week and bang it all out at once.
6 – I WISH I didn’t trust so easily
Think this one is self-explanatory. I was so naive when it came to people having my best interests at heart. I had friends who were using me to get to the contacts I knew. Sometimes those contacts would be my boyfriends… and sometimes they’d be other friends and then I’d always be left alone.
This is one everyone learns one day and the only way to learn is to experience the pain first hand. No one can avoid this happening to them, and it just takes a long time to get over it and realise not everyone are arseholes…
7 – I WISH I embraced education more
Do you remember when you were a teen, and all the adults around you would tell you to focus and study in school? And we all thought we knew best, so we ignored them? Yeah… I wish I listened and I would probably say the same thing to the youth of today as well. I just know no matter how much people say it to them, they’ll never listen. I know I didn’t.
I didn’t realise how much I would find myself stuck at a red light because of the fact I didn’t pay enough attention in school. It’s something that really does affect your life.
8 – I WISH I saved my money
Not going to dwell too much on this as I have discussed the consequences of this one over here, but we all have that one thing we wish didn’t purchase and instead saved for more practical things in life. However I really do wish I saved every last bit of pocket-money and small earnings that I got from paper rounds and pot washing in the local pub. Instead I spent it on that £20 top from Topshop when I went to town EVERY Saturday to buy things I didn’t need.
Slightly annoyed at my younger self.
9 – I WISH I wasn’t so stubborn
I have lost so many close friends because of this, even family. Some I regret, but others I do feel deserved to be shut out and my stubbornness helped me with that. When someone hurt me, it was pretty easy for me to cut them out and in that sense, I love my stubbornness, but in another, I really wish I wasn’t because I let people go that I didn’t want to.
Swings and roundabouts with this one, but too many people are no longer in my life due to this. I’m trying to forgive those who deserve it, and at the end of the day, everything happens for a reason.
10 – I WISH I continued to learn the guitar
I honestly wish I stuck to my guitar lessons when I was younger. As terrible as I was, I think it would have been pretty cool to be able to play an instrument.
People made fun of me for going to private music lessons during school hours and I ended up giving it up, along with the fact I struggled to learn. As I grew up, I was pretty upset that I let the words of people stop me from practising.
It’s easier to see when you grow up that their words and their opinions really don’t matter.